going out on a rainy night

with great people.
I like the way the Aussie's say it.
a night to roam the town we call home,
and time to forget about you.
this way I wont be hurt in the end.
I'm convincing myself that its better this way.
I'm convincing myself of something crazy, no?

Take it away and let me breathe.
torn between two, this isnt pleasant.
i'm not so great with the fork in the road.
i usually carve my own path in frustration.
leaving both sides in the dust.

okay,
im going to be happy and have fun, enough of this indecisivness.
:)

grrr

Not again. This usually doesn't end well. So I cannot possibly let myself in.

Should I believe you?

If it is true then someone will be hurt.
I don't want to be responsible for the damage.
But in all reality, I will be.
It will all be my fault.


New beginnings? I think not.
Old baggage will drag behind me...
I hate to put it that way, but that's kinda what it feels like right now.
Ugh, I'm a horrible person.

Bye.
:)

miscellaneous.

i like the word.

these girls are all amazing.

death and taxes

are the only things that are certain in life. according to my teacher.

Can I just ask this one question?

can you just let me dream?
Because you may not believe it. But i have a bright future. Despite what the economy looks like; even though America is 50 something trillion dollars in debt. (what does a trillion dollars even look like?)i am still setting out to do whatever God has for me. and i am starting that little by little.

updates:
PROM. oh why must this cliche highschool tradition cause so much pain? must we suffer so much just for this memorable night? thats all i will say about this, there is just too much drama. and people are being hurt. its not healthy.

AUSTIN, TX: live music capital of the world here i come! the day after tommorrow. I cant wait to be immersed in the culture of the indie city and then immerse in the presence of God. :)bye.

my "i's" are not capitalized. does that offend you, yeah?

a Dios.

:)

jump to the skies. see how far you can go.

the sunset benders.

bend the light to find those who didn't know they were searching.

Wednesday.

I am reading a Tale of three kings, it is quite odd, I cant seem to put it down, so I guess that means I like it.

Btw... Happy Wednesday:)

secret meeting.

woop. wow. bam. its been a while...
but I'm back for now, and we will see how this goes.
I am sitting in the school library. Its 2nd period.
who knew blogger wasn't blocked in school?
So what has been up with me lately?
Well, fashion wise, its been great! Every week I buy a couple of key items to add some spice to my wardrobe. Which boosts my style and confidence as well. :) Recently, I bought these gorgeous boots from Urban- boots:) which I now wear... everyday.
I cannot wait until summer where I can wear whatever I darn well please:).
*Pause*
My heart tumults in my chest, the librarian walks by with a curious look on her face. No, it doesn't only happen on TV.
!!!!!!! Click!!!!!!
Yea, if my library looked like that I would be here everyday.
Upcoming Events:
PROM- I have a date, well its actually just a friend. And a vintage dress with a corsette. How will I dance when I cant even breathe? Oh well, the night will be grand. Pics of my dress later.
GRADUATION- Finally, the comencement of my 13 years of government enforced schooling...and all that other crap.
SUMMER 2010- need I say more? Well, yes, there are subtopics.
 - VIVA ESPANA- Dreams do come come true. I am taking an 11 day trip throughout all of Spain with  couple of friends. I cannot explain how excited, eager, anxious. ready I am.
 - CANVAS SUMMER CAMP 2010- If you do not know already I go to Lakewood Church, and I'm really involved in the Youth there. Canvas. And this summer is going to be sick, that is all.
 - NIGHTS WITH THE BEST FRIENDS. - self explanatory. YAY!


Well, I got that off my chest.
Lastly, I just want to give thanks to God for always having something to look forward to in my life. I know a lot of people do not have that. Its a blessing to do the things that I can do, the things that I take for granted daily. I hope one day to do alot more and use my God-given resources, gifts, talents, and passions to impact and help others that are less fortunate, that need something to believe in, hope for, love. OK, that is all:)

con mucho amorrrr,
nickymarie.